This week for me...
Monday, 6 seat in the "bad" boat. 11K. Port for the just the 4th time this season. I had done pretty well the previous times, but Monday was pretty bad. I kept missing TONs of water, but whatever.
Weds, Coach needed port volunteers so I said I would try it again. It was even worse. I had no body control. The oar got in the water but I don't know how. Then I would try to fix it and something else would go wrong. The coach switched me out after about a 1/3 of practice and was going to switch me back in for the last third, but I decided the better part of valor was to just stay out. I couldn't really feel my right forearm so I couldn't figure out feathering at all. (3K total)
Thursday, I was supposed to be bow of the "good" boat, but there were storms so people didn't show. The coach was going to put people in a pair and I WAS NOT ONE OF THEM,

but he did ask if anyone wanted to scull. I volunteered. 6K. I was pretty frustrated, but the asst. coach actually got me to understand ratio. I also felt the benefits of a straight back.
Friday, nothing... End of a bad week, was happy just to get home.
Saturday. 7K sculling. Was in a completely inappropriate boat. Another sculler normally takes the boat I was going to scull in and duped me and the coach into thinking it was a lightweight boat. It was like rowing a freight truck, but I did okay. Then 15K in 5 seat sweeps. I was not great, the lineup was not great, but at least I feel like I had to quit the sport.
Today for me... 5K sculling. It was crappy. I was in the boat I had been duped out of yesterday, and it turns out it is an icky boat! The wind was also really strong over 30kph. I dug my port oar really badly, but I did have a couple of good strokes.
It has been an incredibly bad week. 1) I had made a decision to try to go out (is everyone sitting down?) for the competitive rowing team at the boathouse. I was ready to commit to it. To get up at 4 a.m. and to work harder than I like to work, but I am going on vacation the first week of tryouts so it won't work. I was/am beyond disappointed. That was Monday morning and the week just went down hill... I'll just share the highlights. 2) Weds my boss yelled at me, literally, while accusing me of lying by omission and threatening that if layoffs were to happen I might be one of the first to go. I didn't sleep much. On Friday I made him sit down with me to talk. I showed him PROOF that I hadn't been deceptive. He apologized, but it made me realize how much I hate my job. (I am watching a hugely bad movie called "I Really Hate My Job"). 3) My body had been hurting since May because of the rowing on starboard--my whole left side was tight so I went to the massage lady, and she saved me.

Both sides of my body feel normal now; it was amazing. She found muscles (in my armpits actually) that I did not know hurt. But it turns out I have golfer's elbow in my right arm.

It does explain why I couldn't feel my forearm on Weds rowing port. 4) I was supposed to take my captain's test today, or at least I thought I was supposed to. The coach (another one) said that I had to schedule a private lesson to take it (not to mention the wind and the crappy lesson--probably a good thing).

I had been looking forward to taking a single out alone, because the 2K loop I do while sculling is slightly boring. Okay so the morale of the story is "woe is me". Hopefully I will snap out of this phase soon....